I'm not even going to come with an excuse as to why this poor blog has been left to collect dust for so long. I just didn't have inspiration.
However, now suddenly, my brain is filled with thoughts and I felt like writing it down. This is mainly because I finally got to reading Girl Online On Tour By Zoe Sugg and the theme in the book causing me to think a lot.
I'm now at that stage where whenever I see relatives or other adults, or whenever mom meets a friend or former colleague, it's asked "So, what do you want to do once you finish school?" and "what school are you going to once you finish school? University or what have you been thinking?" and "what profession do you want to have?" etc etc etc. Essentially, what they're asking is "WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO WITH YOUR LIFE?!?!". To their horror I always answer "I don't know." It's like the color is drained from their face, their eyes open wide and they think "wow, this girl is going to end up nowhere, this poor girl is lost and confused". OK, I might be exaggerating a little, but you get it. They expect me to know what I want to do with the rest of my life.
In about a year my fellow peers and classmates are going to apply to schools, some applying to university to be doctors, others applying to music schools and some applying to a school, starting their journey to become multi-billionaires. But some of us, like me, won't apply at all. Instead we'll shrug and say "I'll figure it out" and search for a job to make money, and get a well-deserved break from studying.
It's weird with me, I've always known what I want, and I still know what I want. I want to make enough money to travel and see Europe, and maybe go further than that. I want to sing and dance, and I want to write and draw. I want to spend days discovering cities, and people, that I never thought I'd discover. But most of all, I want to be happy. So while I'm figuring out this tiny detail in my life, called "profession", I've still got it pretty much figured out. I know what I want, at least enough to feel somewhat content, and somehow I feel people are asking the wrong question when they ask "what profession do you want to have?". Instead, I wish they asked what I want to achieve in life, what I want to do to overcome my fears, or what I enjoy doing. That way, they wouldn't have to worry.
Yes, a profession is important. It's important to make money so you can afford food, a bed, a shower and clothes. But, I feel as if we're taught that we should get a job that makes us rich and that it doesn't matter whether our job makes us happy or not. It's just something you have to do to get by. But in my opinion, I think work should be fun. It should be something you look forward to, something that doesn't even feel like "work".
I guess what I'm trying to say is, I'm not trying to figure out a "profession", I'm trying to figure out what makes me happy, and what I can do to be happy.
"Choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life."