Monday, August 31, 2015

August Favorites

Oh Hi!

Long time no see... Again... Sorry!
I also started school two weeks ago so I've been just trying to survive haha!
Anyways, this month I've been loving a few things so I thought I would show you!


First up, I bought this Timotei shampoo and conditioner at the beginning of August because they were only 1,99€ each, so I just thought "Well if it's crappy I don't waste a lot of money" but oh my gosh it's the best purchase I've ever made! It's for dry or damaged hair and I have that so it's basically made for me. It contains 100% natural Jericho Rose extract (very little amount though) and it contains no parabens or colorants (or so the bottle says). It also includes a few oils like coconut oil. The brand is an Unilever brand (therefore not cruelty-free).
The shampoo is really good, it cleanses my hair and makes it smell good (it has a flowery scent but somehow reminds me of christmas!) and the conditioner is just amazing. When I use these my hair is so soft and healthy-looking and I just make everyone touch my hair after using it. If you have 4€ to spare and can find this in your local drugstore then definitely get it!


Next up is this Schwarzkopf GLISS Hair Repair Daily Oil Elixir for extremely damaged hair. I bought this some time ago but I've been using it more this month than before and I just love my hair when I use it. I put it in the ends of my hair after my hair has completely dried after washing it. I usually do two pumps. It just makes my hair feel super soft and easy to manage and my hair also feels healthier when using it. I'm not sure it actually does a lot but I don't have as damaged hair anymore as I used to so I guess I'm doing something right! This is around 7€!



The next thing is also a hair product. This is the TRESemm√© Instant Refresh translucent dry shampoo. This was the first dry shampoo I ever bought and I think I'll buy this 'til the end of time. At 8€ (or something like that) it's affordable and does it's job well. I tried the Batiste dry shampoo but I didn't like that nearly as much as this dry shampoo. It just somehow works great and makes my hair look clean and washed when it just isn't.


Now to some face stuff. The Body Shop was having a sale on all facemasks, all facemasks was reduced to 15€ (from 21€). I had been thinking about buying the Tea Tree face mask for a while and when the sale came up I had to. The face mask is a cooling face mask for blemished skin and I have to say it feels super nice when it just kind of cools your face as you put it on. It's super smooth and personally I love the feeling of just relaxing for 15-20 minutes with a facemask while watching youtube videos so I've been doing that. I find that after I wash this of my face just feels super clean and refreshed and I feel that it does actually lift away impurities as the packaging promises. The only thing I don't really like about this is the smell but honestly, I can cope with it!


I wanted a new whitening toothpaste so I bought this. Yes, it's a toothpaste. It's the Colgate Max White One Optic toothpaste and it promises "instantly visible white teeth". I always want white teeth (I mean, who doesn't?) so I wanted to try this out. I don't know if it actually whitens my teeth but I feel like it does, but then maybe it's just an illusion. Though since I've been using this my mom has been telling me I have super white teeth. So I guess it works!
This is around 4€ I think!


Citymarket (drugstore in Finland) was having a Ben&Jerry's sale. You got to pick three 425g tubs for 10€ so I instantly jumped on my bike to get some icecream. Since a 425g Ben&Jerry's normal cost over 6€ this was a bargain. I bought Peanut butter cup (which was okay but not that yummy), What-a-lotta chocolate cookie core (which I started on a few days ago and it's also abosolutely heaven) and All or Nut-ting Core which was my favorite of them all. It's just heaven on earth and I might've eaten it in 3 big go's. Oops. 


In August I've been reading a lot of the books I've got ages ago and never got through. While I've read 5 books this month my favorite of them all was "One tuesday morning" by Karen Kingsbury. I read it in swedish though. Anyways, the book is about two identical looking husbands in USA. They're both married and the book follows the families in their lives and as 9/11 happens. What I liked about this book was that it had such a mindblowing twist in it that I never expected and the book had me hyperventilating and crying. From the moment I started reading it I was just hooked and it had me thinking about it whenever I wasn't reading it. I even had dreams about it!
While Karen Kingsbury writes christian books she doesn't write them in a "wow God is holy and almighty" way, while the book does have those moments it's more of a novel about a heartbreaking attack and it just really had me thinking a lot about 9/11 and about the people who suffered from it. If you want to cry your eyes out and also find out about the mindblowing twist in it, definitely read this! (the twist had me honestly reading it like :OOOOO)


Last, but NOT LEAST, I GOT A NEW PHONE!! I had been suffering with a broken and full iPhone 4 for so long that I was super happy to finally upgrade to an iPhone 5s. IT'S GOLD GUYS. I'm just super happy, let me have my moment.

That's all the things I've been loving this month! What have you been loving this month?♥

Saturday, August 1, 2015

In The News Today


Oh Hi!

It's been a few weeks again, I apologize for that. However I have a good reason this time: I was a help leader at a one week camp. Yes, that's an experience.

Anyways, that's not what I'm going to talk about today. I'm home alone, it's 12am and I started thinking (you don't say). 

I don't exactly know how to start this blog post. So I'm going to start with a question: Do you watch/read the news? Do you turn on the TV/radio at a certain time and hear about all that's happening in this world? 

I don't. I stopped reading/watching the news when I some months ago had a breakdown over all the negative in the news. This country is in war with that country. This murderer is walking around freely. That rapist didn't get the life sentence. This country has been taken over by Isis. These people were murdered because they're black. This many people died last year of hunger. That many people get raped each day.

You see, for a passionate 17-year-old girl it's hard to hear those things and be stuck in little Finland not being able to help any of these situations. There's NOTHING I can do to stop a war, because I'm not a president of a big influential country. There's nothing I can do to stop world hunger. There's nothing I can do to stop people from murdering and raping.
Sure, I can donate money to organisations and spread the world about things, but they don't really do anything. I want to go to Africa and feed the children. I want to go have a long and thoughtful discussion with the stupid people deciding that a war is a great solution. But I'm a 17-year-old girl writing a blog post at 12am.

I'm too passionate, too feeling, too sympathetic to be able to watch the news. Because when do they ever talk about anything positive on the news? When do they say "AND THIS ABSOLUTELY WONDERFUL THING TODAY HAPPENED"? No, it's always "sadly this and this happened and these countries are doing this to try and help but let's face it it's useless". No wonder almost everyone on this earth is a little depressed. We don't ever get to hear anything positive. And that's probably also why everyone is so negative.

I don't exactly know what my point is. Maybe I'm trying to tell you to sometime skip that time of day when you watch the news. Because let me tell you, I'm a lot happier when I don't know about all the crap that's going on. Because at least then I don't feel like running up to all the politicians and punching them in the face.

Monday, July 6, 2015

Helsinki Haul | ItsMaddiehbu


Oh Hi!

I recently went to Helsinki to visit my friend Oona (http://instagram.com/itsoona) and we did some shopping. Oops.
Watch me talk about everything I bought, including a freaking stuffed leopard...




Saturday, June 27, 2015

Trust Issues


Oh Hai!

Today I'm coming to you with another personal blogpost. It seems as if I just want to get it all out haha! Today I'm discussing trust issues. I should also mention that it's 12:15am so this is some late night ramble that might not make any sense. Brace yourselves.

Have you ever had your heart broken? Unless you're a two year old then the answer is probably yes. Do you feel like after that moment you're never quite the same?

I think getting your heart broken is probably the worst that can happen to you, because even if you years later understand why the person did what they did, you're still not quite the same. Because of what that person did you're afraid of making the first move, you're afraid that any other romance will end the same way.
Rejection feels like hell, but really getting to know someone and then have them mess it all up is worse. Simply because you see a future, even if you're young and stupid. You know, you wake up in the middle of the night thinking about that person and then suddenly you fall asleep crying. Eventually you get over it, but because of what one person did you have trust issues.

My trust issues aren't exactly about not being able to trust anyone. My problem is that it will take another guy months, maybe YEARS to get me to completely trust him. So far that hasn't happened (hence why I'm a single pringle).

My problem is that I sit at home thinking about a guy but not getting in contact with that guy because I'm absolutely sure, and I convince myself so everytime, that he isn't interested. Because one guy seemed to be interested and even pretended to be so only to make a stupid decision.
My problem is that one guy ruined it for every other guy. If there will come a guy who will actually like me I'll probably not realize, because one guy said one thing and did another thing. And if I do realize I feel like I'll have to drag the whole story about this guy and how because of what he did I have trust issues. And what if the guy doesn't understand?

I realize I'm rambling and talking absolute utter bullshit by this point, but I guess my point is: because one guy did something stupid another guy will have to fight ten times harder. Because one guy did something stupid I can't ever make the first move, because I'm absolutely convinced it'll end in tears. Cheers love, you suck.


I guess I'll just have to wait to meet a guy who is worth getting my heart broken by... Does that make sense? 



I hope this doesn't come off as me saying that every guy is a dick, because that's not the case. A few guys are dicks and sadly ruin it for every other nice guy out there

Wednesday, June 17, 2015

This Or That Tag | Tagged by CaraWritesStuff


Oh Hi!

I recently got tagged by Cara from www.carawritesstuff.wordpress.com to do the "This or that" tag. Apparently this tag has been a thing for a long time but I've never actually seen it before. However I do think it's a fun tag, so let's get started!

Makeup

Blush or bronzer? I'd have to say bronzer because I'm a very pale girl and also I have naturally red/pink cheeks so I can survive without a blush!
Lipgloss or lipstick? I reach for my lipsticks more than I reach for lipglosses because I feel like lipsticks stay on longer, and whenever I wear lipstick I usually want it to stay on for some time!
Eyeliner or mascara? As much as I love mascara I'd have to pick eyeliner because whenever I'm not wearing mascara I do some kind of eyeliner. And in worst cases you can just use eyeliner as mascara!
Foundation or concealer? Without a doubt foundation because I actually don't own a concealer right now! also it's super hard to find a concealer that is the same shade of pale as me...
Neutral or color eyeshadow? I'd have to say neutral because I have yet to venture out and do some crazy eyeshadow look. Also I think neutrals suit me more! I'm all about a bright color eyeliner though!
Pressed or loose eyeshadows? Definitely pressed! I already make a mess with pressed eyeshadows so I can't imagine what I would look like if I used loose eyeshadows!
Brushes or sponges? Brushes! I just love the feel of brushes (also, how brushes are super pretty!!) and I've never even tried a sponge for applying foundation etc. I just feel like it will suck up all the product and as a poor 17-year-old student I just don't have money for that!

Nails

O.P.I or China Glaze? I'll have to go with O.P.I just because I have never tried China Glaze.
Long or short? Definitely long nails! If a nail breaks I even have troubles texting! I'm just so used to long nails that I can't function with short nails!
acrylic or natural? I have never actually tried acrylic nails, but it's definitely on my bucket list. But because of that I have to say natural.
Brights of darks? I absolutely LOVE bright nailpolishes, but I can't really bring myself to wear bright nails, unless it's orange, during fall. So it changes with seasons but over all I love my bright nails!
Flower or no flower? It depends on what mood I'm in. Sometimes I just quickly want to paint my nails but sometimes I feel like I need to add a flower to make it look extra pretty. I guess I'll have to go with both!

Body

Perfume or body splash? What's a body splash? These things I should know, but no. So let me spray myself with some perfume.
Lotion or body butter? Definitely lotion because it sinks into the skin quicker. I sometimes use body butters and I feel like I sit there for five minutes just waiting for it to sink in.
Body wash or soap? Body wash! I don't even think I own soap.
LUSH or other bath company? Well the thing is I've never tried anything from Lush as the only Lush store in Finland is approximately 800 kms away from my city, so that's a no go. I would however love to try Lush sometime, but then again I won't get any use of a bathbomb or bathmelt as we don't have a bathtub (much to my disappointment).

Fashion

Jeans or sweatpants? For going out: jeans. For being at home or quickly popping to the store: Sweatpants. I do hate jeans though.
Long sleeve or short? If I've shaved my armpits then I don't mind short sleeves but if I haven't shaved my armpits (because let's face it, who shaves their armpits every day???) I'll have to go with long sleeves.
Dresses or skirts? This is a hard one. A dress is nice if you just want to wear one thing but a skirt is nice if you want to wear a plain skirt and then a more "out there" top. Also I feel like skirts are more flattering on me, so I'll go with skirts.
Stripes or plaid? I never actually wear plaid stuff, so stripes!
Flip flops of sandals? I hate flip flops unless I'm going to the beach. I'd just much rather wear sandals!
(Cara stopped here but I found some more on the interwebs so I thought I'd continue!)
Scarves or hats? I don't wear either, oops!
Studs or dangly earrings? I think dangly earrings are prettier but I don't ever wear dangly earrings so I'd have to go with studs.
Necklaces or bracelets? Necklaces because I just never wear bracelets!
Heels or flats? I feel like heels give an outfit something extra, but then flats are more comfortable. For every day wear I'd say flats but sometimes I feel like just walking around in heels all day!
Cowboy boots or riding boots? Cowboy boots and riding boots just aren't my thing!
Jacket or hoodie? A jacket if I'm going out and a hoodie if I'm just chilling (or going to school and it's fairly warm outside).
Forever 21 or Charlotte Russe? I've never shopped at Charlotte Russe so I'll have to go with Forever 21!

Hair

Curly or straight? Well if you asked me 4 years ago I'd say straight but today I'm all about rocking my naturally curly hair!
Bun or ponytail? A bun takes longer than a ponytail but I feel like a bun suits me more than a ponytail.
Bobby pins or butterfly clips? Bobby pins because you can't see them as clearly as butterfly clips.
Hair spray of gel? Hair spray!
Long or short? Well I want my hair to be past my boobs but I don't feel like it'll ever grow to that length. However I can't see myself in really short hair so definitely long!
Light or dark? Because I'm so pale I suit lighter hair better than darker hair.
Side sweep bangs or full bangs? Since I have curly hair I would never be able to have full bangs without having to straighten my hair every five minutes so definitely side sweep bangs for me!
Up or down? Down (as in not high up on my head), but mostly in some kind of braid!

There's still a "random" section but since I wanted this to be beauty and fashion related I'll stop here. Thank you to Cara for tagging me, make sure you check out her answers too!
Hope you're having an amazing week so far♥

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

Happiness


Oh Hi!

Today my blog turns two. I've been blogging pretty solidly for two years now, that's mental!
Sadly I'm currently in a very deep writer's block where I have no inspiration, but today I wanted to talk about happiness. My happiness.

When I started this blog in 2013 I was actually very depressed. I had at the end of 2012 been a week in an emergency "treatment" place because of extreme stress and depression. So when I started this blog I can quite frankly say that I wasn't feeling my best. I hadn't been feeling my best for quite a few years actually.

So when I started this blog I went to talk to a special nurse every week and I took anti-depressants. 

Now, two years later I can say that I've found my happiness. With the help of therapy and anti-depressants I got out of that terrible darkness and I saw some light. I started understanding WHY some people did what they did and every time I go see my therapist I just realize what a happy place I'm in.

My depression came from the outside, from the people who were around me and from my experiences. When I understood how to handle these people and these experiences I started feeling better. I got more confident. And today, if someone were to say something rude I would look them straight in the eye and say "thank you" with a smile or just roll my eyes and continue my day. Whereas two years ago if someone said something rude I would pretend I was fine and that it didn't hurt and then I'd go home and cry. Ah, what a freeing feeling it is to not care anymore.

Maybe one day I'll go into the details about how I ended up in such a dark depressed place, but for now I want you to know that I found my happiness. I want you to know that there's light at the end of the tunnel. Sometimes it just takes someone else's eyes to see that light.

I see people online who are extremely depressed and in such dark places and I just want to do everything I can to let them know that there is happiness somewhere out there. Because you see, you're entitled to happiness. You're ALLOWED to be happy.

When you understand what you need to do to be happy and when you start reaching out to happiness wonderful things start to happen. Sometimes you just need someone's help to do that. And that's okay. It's okay to need help, it's actually a great step if you admit to yourself that you need help. Then you can take a deep breath and do what you need to do.

It hasn't been easy. But it's definitely worth it, because now I'm truly who I'm supposed to be. Now I'm happy and cheerful and bubbly and bright, and that's who I've always been deep inside. The darkness that I was feeling just pushed that person down, because whenever I was that person I got hurt. So my logic was: stop being happy and cheerful and bubbly and bright, you'll get hurt that way.
But now, the people who went through this with me smile and say that I'm a completely different person today than who I was two years ago. My friends see a happy girl and I don't think any of them even thought I had ever had depression before I told them. So that's that.

I don't really know what the meaning of this blogpost is, but I feel like I'm claiming my happiness. I feel like I'm standing at the top of a mountain, facing the people and experiences that put me in that dark place, staring them right in the eye and saying "I'm happy, and there's nothing you can do about it" and it's an absolute victory.

I want to finish with adding a song here, "Superheroes" by The Script. I'm a superhero, we're all superheroes. Stand tall, I believe in you♥




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Online thing that helped me with my depression:

The Quiet Place http://thequietplaceproject.com/thequietplace 

The guy who made the quiet place also created 90 Seconds relaxation exercise, The Thoughts Room, The Dawn Room and The Comfort spot, all great for relaxing and getting your thoughts out. They are all listed at the bottom of the site! (The Dawn Room and The Thoughts Room are my personal favorites!)


Friday, May 15, 2015

Home Alone


Oh Hi!

Do you ever walk around feeling very independent and mature and like you don't need your parents for anything? Yeah, I do. That is until they go away for ONE DAY and ONE NIGHT and suddenly I'm a little child who is craving to sit in mommy's lap. No seriously.

When my parents drove me to school to then leave to wherever I just said "Bye bye, see you tomorrow!" and didn't think of it. Then I got home from school to an empty house. We have kind of a big house and being alone in this house felt horrible. 

I put on all the lights even though it was clearly light outside and I made sure I had locked the door. Then I turned on my laptop and spent the evening pretending I wasn't home alone for the night.

It's not exactly that I'm scared of anything, it's just quiet, super super quiet. Right now while writing this all I'm hearing is my fingers tapping on the keyboard and my laptop fan (ventilator, whatever it's called). It's past 9pm and I'm never home alone over the night.

It's alright being home alone for the day, but when it comes to being home alone for the night it's a whole nother story. You have no one to say goodnight to and hug before going to sleep and when you wake up you have no one to say goodmorning to. It's weird and I totally understand the boy from Home Alone for being scared. A house is pretty freaky when you're on your own.

On a  brighter note though, I'm having my birthday party tomorrow (saturday). I'm super excited haha! I've invited my 6 closest friends and we're going to have some fun, like eating food and such. I'll make sure I take pictures!

On that note I think I'm actually going to go to sleep. Yes, it's 9pm. Yes, I could run around naked. But I feel very very exposed somehow. I have to be up at 9am tomorrow anyways since I have my birthday party at 12pm. WE GON' TURN UP (not really, I think we'll all be half asleep by that point still).

Remember to wish me a happy birthday on monday as I'm turning 17... I'm getting pretty old!
 If you want to read my blogpost from last year when I turned 16 you can find it here!
Take care♥

I've been super active on my social media recently (especially on Instagram and Twitter)!

Sunday, May 3, 2015

My reaction to "Fifty Shades Of Grey"

Oh Hi!

So I recently watched Fifty Shades of Grey to see what the hype was about and I also wanted to see if I agreed with the bad reviews it had got. So I grabbed some popcorn and was ready to watch a 2 hour long movie with a bad storyline.
I live-texted all my reactions to Jade so I thought instead of writing a whole blogpost I'd just put the screenshots of that conversation here. I blurred out the curse words but not the ones in quotes (did that make sense?). Also yes, Jade is "My Wifeee" on my phone.
Read these from top to bottom, the picture on the left before the picture on the right! I should also add that these might be a little confusing as Jade and I often tend to have multiple conversations going on at the same time so one discussion is in one text and the other discussion is in another text. However the most important things I think you will still understand.















































I want to add that I personally don't support this kind of abuse. As Jade said; there's a difference between being dominant and being abusive and I found Christian Grey to be extremely abusing, physically and mentally. While this is all a movie and all made up, someone might be in a similar situation and seeing this movie might make them think that it's perfectly normal to be in a relationship like this one and that's why I don't want to support this movie. Please know your worth. BDSM isn't anything wrong in itself, just know when it's domination and when it's abuse. Be safe, know your worth. And please don't romanticize abusive relationships. They're nothing to strive for.


(Please also note that I use a lot of sarcasm in my texts and some of my texts might be a little confusing, however I mean nothing rude with any of them, I just personally felt that way when watching the movie)

If you are in an abusive relationship these sites might be helpful:

http://www.thehotline.org/
http://thisisabuse.direct.gov.uk/
http://au.reachout.com/signs-of-an-abusive-relationship
http://www.loveisrespect.org/
http://counsellingresource.com/lib/therapy/service/live-online-therapy/